The Great God Shove
I awakened slowly and the
first reality that hit me was not the chill in the small
bedroom of the cold water flat, not the faded and dingy
surroundings, not the fact that there was no school for
the day. I shivered. Reality was my arch tormentor,
Shove, waiting in the sunshine of a new day, waiting to
tease, pester, and plague me. Charlestown, MA and Shove,
in 1935 when I was seven, were hard realities.
I shivered again. Shove the bully was relentless as well
as real.
So was EAP.
The fire in the kitchen stove was out. A bag of coal was
needed from the store. As I popped down the tenement
stairs from the second floor I was aware of the closed-in
odors of urine nearly alive, cabbage cooking left-overs
that met at your eyes, and damp plaster explaining a
background of life. There was my father the robust
Marine, my mother the iron of the family, and five
children. I was the oldest.
And there was Shove.
In a side-saddle, bouncing gait I hit the bottom landing
and burst out into the Saturday sunshine trying to warm
the cobblestones of Bunker Hill Ave. I’d have to
dare Shove again this day as all days. There always had
to be some kind of display. It had been that way since
the beginning.
A crisp and cool breeze, a late October breeze, whistled
in from the Mystic River and the Charlestown Navy Yard
where my father’s Marine Barracks loomed over the
wall. It nipped at my ears. Pennies and nickels for a 25
pound bag of coal jingled in my pocket. I thought how
soon the stovetop would be a mickey-brick red. And I
could smell the cocoa my mother would make and the toast
set on the stovetop for mere seconds. Burnt was the way I
liked it. Well done and filling the air with its burnt
aroma. Aromas, in Charlestown, in 1935, had a strong
place in the order of things. Especially aromas of food
and distinct if minor creature comforts.
Charlestown itself was a yardstick for those who cared to
calculate the measure of a thing. For me, at my seven
years and a little wiser for my time than I should have
been, it presented size and a kind of solid geometry that
could not be shaken off too lightly. Perception of things
for me began with the three- or four-decker tenements
walling up around me and my little haunts. They hung over
me sheer as cliffs.
Often they closed in with their drab time-eaten gray
paint, and a few revolutionary attempts by neighbors to
spruce up. Now and then a corncob yellow or a pale green
façade came into being. And passed just as quickly. We
knew daydreams on a daily basis, an opiate in the air.
A drunk shivered and smelled in the doorway of No.2
Bunker Hill Ave. For him, I knew, there was no place to
go. Locked into Charlestown gave you a certain grace for
survival or a slow death. But it did not give great
promise of escape. Escape came in the books I read.
Escape was over the iron fence of the Navy Yard, high,
iron wrist-thick and pointed at its top, and the harbor
beyond. Like a medieval wall it was, that fence.
Before I turned the corner I looked behind me up the
length of Bunker Hill Ave., past the cubic blocks of the
tenements, the Bond Bread factory made wholly of red
mickeys and square as a prison face, and St.
Catherine’s Church as gigantic and ugly as any
structure could be. I saw Hobie’s little beanery
stuck in between two tenements as if it were an
afterthought, a stall for a pony in a Clydesdales’
barn. The Ave. ran uphill and disappeared over the
horizon. Out there the subway ran two ways out of
Sullivan Square. One way went deep into downtown. The
other headed off on a third-rail run to Everett and the
places beyond, where trees grew in great clusters and
fields leaped and the wind sang a different tune. Here
upon me it shrieked around clapboard corners and up the
slim alleys across which neighbors could touch each
other.
The chill wind penetrated my felt jacket. Even before I
looked I knew Shove was there in front of Halsey’s
Market on the corner of Chelsea and Ferrin Streets. I
would have to run the gauntlet again, pass by him. Taunts
there would be and perhaps more small pains he might
inflict on me. Shove was nothing more than a bully. A
seventeen year-old bully and I was his favorite target.
To me it was surprising he didn’t have a sloped
forehead or a bulging jaw or a strange look in his eyes.
I never heard that he was dropped on his head as a baby.
Nothing said anything about him except what he did. And
he bullied.
Hatless, blond, hands stuffed into dungaree pockets,
wearing a denim jacket, he leaned against a brick wall.
He was like a firecracker ready to go off, which is what
I thought about him. Why he picked on me so much only he
and I knew, a sort of mutual understanding that Shove
would get as much of me as he could until the day of
revenge came.
Shove thought it would never come. But I knew different.
It also was in the air.
He leaned against the wall in the superior way he had of
imposing himself over most things around him. But a
strange mixture he was to say the least. Shove was the
neighborhood hero athlete, tall, lean in the middle, a
super first baseman and long-ball hitter, a driving
high-knee action tailback that smelled the end zone, who
cracked into daylight so often it was rote. They said he
was a vicious tackler, had speed and punching power in
each fist, could arc a horseshoe into the air with the
expectancy of hearing metal at its other end. Out of
town, they said, Shove would have been a ringer in any
game.
It was me he hated for a special reason. And that’s
why he always picked on me. It wasn’t that he
didn’t pick on others, younger or older, but he made
me out special.
The catalyst for all of this was my father, a striking
figure in his dress blues, three stripes up and three
stripes down. Six feet of leathered Marine was he with
crayon-red hair even the wind deigned not move. Before
Shove my father had been the athlete of most renown, a
tough catcher who owned every pitcher he ever caught, a
blocking back with the skills of a mercenary, a clutch
candlepin bowler who excelled at Hi-Lo- Jack, a seventeen
letter high school athlete who had twisted the fate of
many a gambler.
And Shove was afraid of him. Shove and I shared that
knowledge. It made him the bully he was and me his
special consideration.
Few people contested Shove’s position as king of the
hill. He had produced. In a big game with one leg near
useless he dragged himself and two tacklers into the end
zone with the clock running down. Hadn’t he driven
home the winning run in eleven straight games?
Weren’t the Braves interested in him? Didn’t he
stand back to back with a pal against a whole Jamaica
Plain gang at a wedding once and beat some of them to a
pulp?
Yet years before my father had done the same things, to
this day being spoken of with awe, with reverence. Shove,
most likely, went out of his way to taunt and tease me,
to speak to my father in that most unlikely fashion. I
was seven years old and Shove was seventeen, but the
disparity in age never entered his mind. Penny or nickel
bottles he religiously kicked out of my hands, punched
bags of groceries I carried from the store, intimidated
me every way he could to dispel the mirrored image that
existed between my father and him. At times he was so
brutal that I cried in my bed at night.
But, in Charlestown in 1935, survival was a matter of
self; that knowledge was all about me. As a result I told
my father but once about the situation. “He’s
always pushing at me, dad. He trips me and knocks me over
the barrels. He’s always breaking my bottles outside
the store and throws my comic books into Halsey’s
garbage bag. Once he grabbed my back pockets and yanked
on them and split my pants right down the seam and
laughed at me all the way home.”
For righteous indignation I waited. For explosion I
waited, awaited the crimson anger that could fill his
face, his eyes. Waited the reality of him pounding Shove
into unconsciousness, for the Irish to come out of the
depths. My father, I knew, had the fists Harry Greb had.
That explosion lay like some quiet volcano, a mere simmer
on the face of life. He looked down at me, eyes blue and
warm, nose unbent and clean as if thugs had never gotten
within his left jab, the hair as red as bricks. The stiff
collar of his dress blues blouse was opened as it was
only at home. The hair on his chest peaked through. Those
strong hands reached for me and what I was alert to were
the veins sticking out on the backs of those hands and
one singularly bulbous vein arching down into one
eyebrow, a throwback, he called it, to the Nicaraguan
Campaign.
His voice then was contradictory, at once steeled, and
yet tender in its delivery. “Sonny, I’ll never
chase him. I’ll not disgrace the uniform. I’ll
never go looking for him, but if I ever turn a corner and
he’s there, he’ll never belly up to you
again.” Firm and ominous finality to those words,
and they came with the one bulbous vein arching into the
eyebrow, echoing all that I wanted to hear. I wanted to
count again the ribbons on his chest.
In the same tone he continued to speak, aware of my
understanding, sensing a nodding to each other had
already taken place. “What you have at hand is a
problem.” He said you with the same firmness. It was
not the first time I had been challenged, nor the first
time my father had challenged me. “You’re only
seven and he’s seventeen. That’s a pretty big
difference, isn’t it?” The spider webs of lines
running outward from his eyes seemed to ripple against
one another.
I nodded a yes.
His eyes never wavered from mine for a second, but that
vein was a still contradiction to the tone of his voice.
“You have every right in the world to protect
yourself from him. I don’t care if you use a bat or
rock or a hunk of iron pipe, but don’t get hurt by
him. You’ve got half again as many smarts as most
kids your age, so use them.”
There it was! In the seven years of my life that had to
be the greatest challenge thrown at me. My toes tingled.
My ears buzzed. Ripples of an unknown charge surged
through my fingertips, and a chill went up my back as if
my shirt had been torn open on that backside. Half aloud
I whispered, “Amontillado.” I pronounced the
word the way I figured old Georgio Rendici would
pronounce it sitting on his milk crate in front of No. 7
Bunker Hill Ave. selling crabs for a nickel. The As
in it were broad and thick.
Reaching out tenderly my father patted me on the head.
There were times when words did not have to pass between
us, but I was sure he had not understood that portentous
word. Off into the busy kitchen he walked, into an aura
of hamburgers and mashed potatoes and stewed tomatoes
that I sucked into my nostrils as sweet as any honey or
candy. Revenge’s delicious air came on stronger than
the promised meal, even as my father stirred fried onions
into the mix.
After the meal we had a glass of root beer. He ladled up
a pint of beer from an open crock, told us stories about
Paris Island, Quantico, Nicaragua, Philadelphia, and his
younger days in Charlestown. Entranced as usual, we sat
in the kitchen of the second floor flat, the stovetop a
dull red. Oblivious it seemed we were of the prison we
were in, of the structure of the walls around us. Nested
and happy we were for the grip of the moment, smiling and
nodding to each other at an old story told anew. I did
not know the strains of the dominant male were working
their way across the face of my soul.
Later, going to bed, the image of Shove intruded in my
last wakeful moments. The deep blue eyes leaped into
mine, his open mouth full of roar, his fist assuming
monstrous proportions as it came sweeping at me in a huge
arc from an endless orbit.
Then, with gravy and all the fixings, I dreamed of
punishing him. Had I not been given license? Had not my
father actually commissioned me to get Shove by any
measure possible? Was I not the oldest of the brood?
Would Shove, in his hatred and fear, next move toward my
sisters? The dread things of survival in Charlestown I
dreamed; the near misses, the near escapes, the vultures
that floated about us, the Great God Shove kicking at me
from some imperial throne with his mute cohorts standing
tall as laughing columns.
The last moments told me I would get him. E. A. Poe had
moved his spirit into mine. The mechanic of arch evil had
given me some of his graces, had infused me. The God
Shove, it was apparent, would bow before me. It was only
right. Mean and evil things passed through me. He was
dismembered at wrist and ankle. A Machiavellian
enterprise crushed his eyes bloodless, made him a
laughing stock of that triangle running from City Square
to Sullivan Square to the Mystic Bridge and back to City
Square along Chelsea Street and the huge black iron fence
of the Navy Yard. Inside that triangle, long on one side,
I would fix The Great God Shove forever.
The dreams were still with me as I approached Shove and
his cronies sitting on Halsey’s steps. I pulled the
collar up around my neck to ward off the cold wind,
knowing it was also producing ear defenders against the
slurs and taunts soon to head my way. He held court with
his young giants and I had to pass the gauntlet. In a
superior and muscular grace they lounged, and I felt my
own stature diminish. Shove’s big hands pressed down
on the granite step and he drew his heels in, the muscles
bubbling at his thighs. Onto my eyes fell his eyes, the
deeper blue taking on another hue, a telltale hue. I set
my eyes back on his. The shared knowledge passed between
us as secret as a note; the only person in the world
Shove was afraid of was my father. Though his shoulders
were wide, his jacket full at the chest, his waist thin
as a pole, his hair blond from an Olympus touch, the
knowledge touched us, a short spark of rubbed
electricity.
It burned me; it must have burned him.
“Well, look it now,” he said, “it’s
the Jarhead’s kid coming to do mommy’s errands.
Need to get another nipple for the growing family, baby
Jarhead? Mommy and daddy got nothing else to do?”
Only when he laughed did his pals laugh. I went closer,
my heart pounding, the last pain remembered. Closer I
went for the purchase of the bag of coal; the pennies and
nickels grasped in my fist still balled in my pocket.
“If you ain’t the picture of the sweet little
errand boy, I never seen one. Got your pennies locked up
there in your hand, ‘fraid the bogey man’s
going to take them?”
He guffawed loudly when he said, “Nipples are a dime
a dozen this week for hot-pants Marines.” One of his
pals slapped him on the back. Another pushed his finger
into Shove’s chest. It was like a celebration.
Shove saw the redness pushing in my face.
“Jeezzus,” he said loudly and with feigned
puzzlement, “Wouldn’t you think a Jarhead with
all them goddam kids running around the house would take
his time coming home at night? But not his old man. The
old redhead does the hundred in ten flat to get from that
gate to that house.” He pointed to the Main Gate of
the Navy Yard and the tenement where we lived, No. 3
Bunker Hill Ave. It wasn’t much more than a hundred
yards.
Buddha-like, Halsey sat behind the counter, his face
gray, his eyes a pale and tired green, his cheeks smooth.
The paunch of a belly hung over his belt like a comma out
of place, distorting his skinny frame. Never once had I
seen him outside the store. Bologna and cheese and
mustard and quick sandwich smells filled the small room.
Two bottle caps lay in the middle of the floor, checker
pieces left over from a bigger game. I kicked one of them
under the counter.
Halsey spoke a gutter dialect that said his name really
wasn’t Halsey. “Wuzzit?” He looked out the
door at Shove looking in.
The pennies and nickels spread across the counter.
“A bag of coal,” I said, and pushed the coins
at him. He counted each one and pointed to the back room.
A bag hefted to my shoulder smelled like a gas pipe or as
strong as the area of the railroad tracks on the other
side of City Square. A film of coal dust sifted lightly
onto my jacket.
Halsey hadn’t moved at all, yet the pennies and
nickels were out of sight. Very slowly his eyes moved
toward the door where Shove’s shadow loomed. He
whispered, “Wunza time he getz catcha.”
I looked at him from under the bag of coal. “I getz
him catcha.”
He motioned to the floor
in front of the counter. “Wantza bazkid?” He
shrugged his shoulders. It was a Charlestown shrug.
I grabbed a basket, stepped out the door and Shove
punched the bag off my shoulder. It split on the sidewalk
and spilled into the gutter.
“Damned if the Gyrene ain’t got a butter-finger
kid for an errand boy.” He picked up a handful of
anthracite pea coal and fired them, one by one, across
the street. Four out of five hit the curbing and dropped
onto the grating of the sewer drain.
I put the basket down and placed the half-empty bag in it
and picked up the rest of the coal from the walk and the
gutter. Halsey stared out the window at me. When they
weren’t looking he held up one finger, then hid it
quickly. E.A. Poe had another fan.
Shove and his pals were hysterical with laughter. I ran
to the corner with the basket and stepped into the
hallway of No. 3 Bunker Hill Ave. Again, swift as a
signature, the smell of cabbage and urine and wet plaster
assailed me. I was overwhelmed for a moment. I hated
cabbage. I hated drunks. I hated the landlord. But most
of all, I hated Shove. “Edgar,” I said,
“be my friend.”
My hand fingered the pile of coal in the basket and found
the one I wanted. It was good sized, round, grippable. It
was rock-hard also. Into the street I stepped and went to
the corner. They were still laughing. The piece of coal
flew from my hand. Gracefully and easily, as if he were
on the end of a super double play, Shove caught the hunk
of coal in his hand and shouted back, "Shit on you,
kid. You and your father are both assholes!” He
tossed the piece of coal across Chelsea Street. It hit
the curbing and fell into the mesh of the sewer drain.
The laughter still echoes.
Up the long flight of stairs I lugged the coal, buried in
a vault of misery, seeing no way out of all of it. Was
there a way to get at Shove? The odors still came at me.
Nausea came with it for a moment. It was a fate. We came
into a place and would die in that place. All of it was
prearranged. Karma called and done. Ashes unto ashes,
dust unto dust.
And then it hit me!
Right then, in the middle of the long climb of stairs, it
hit me. The whole grand and glorious scheme hit me right
down to the last detail. I sat on the middle of the
stairs with the basket of coal in my lap and drained off
a large mystical draught of Amontillado. The As
were still broad. I felt giddy. I felt glorious. I was
akin to the gods of revenge. At the top of my voice I
screamed, “I getz catcha, Shove! I getz
catcha!”
The words ran up the walls of the hallway, went to the
second floor and on up to the landing on the third deck.
Just as swiftly they came echoing back from the gray
ribbed metallic ceiling all touched by rust. I patted the
cover of the trash can on the second floor landing,
entered our flat, set about making a new fire, rolling
Globes and Heralds and Posts, knotting them, laying on
kindling.
Early next morning, after my father had left for the
Barracks and a few others stirred in the building, I
shook the ashes down from the stove grates. They gathered
smoky in the coal hod, and the hod I carried carefully to
the cellar. The law of the land, the code of the
building, said that no ashes, hot or cold, were to be
placed in the trash barrels on any upper floor. Fire,
among the other dangers that faced us, presented a
constant peril. Fire could leap up these stairs quick as
any athlete, blocking off escape routes, forcing people
to windows and long falls. Fire could leap from one
building to the next in thin tongues of flame, seeking
out dry rot and years of dust. Fire could crack and
explode its ignition in a thousand places in every
tenement building. A whole block could go up in minutes,
a whole Fourth of July. Once I had seen a monumental fire
engulf buildings in City Square. In a panic I had rushed
home to warn my family when flames routed themselves
along electrical overhead wires down Chelsea Street. The
flames threatened to run their way right to our house,
the burning insulation smoky and black and evil. For days
afterward I remembered the hysteria that had filled me.
Down in the cellar I soaked the ashes with water and
returned up the stairs with a heavier hod. Quietly I
dumped the wet ashes into the trash barrel on the second
floor, then returned to the cellar. Four times I repeated
the trip with ashes wet from the trash barrels, filling
the barrel on the second floor to within eight inches of
its top. That done I scattered papers over the ashes,
replaced the cover, pushing it securely in place.
With Edgar in attendance I waited the interminable time
until nine o’clock came. The wait was spent in
reveries of ultimate satisfaction, letting loose of my
worries, and letting that thing in me build by slow
degrees. The great God Shove would soon know a formidable
adversary.
At a quarter to nine, sisters primped for the day, toast
and hot oats and sugar under my belt, I started up
Chelsea Street toward City Square. Never had I stolen
from Halsey’s or from Abie’s Market or from
Hobie’s little shed where he baked beans and brown
bread in the crudest of brick ovens. They were not fair
game for theft. The Bond Bread factory, with its pies and
cakes and tons of goodies, was fair game. They could
afford it. So could all of the merchants in City Square.
Unlike Halsey or Abie or Hobie they never extended
credit, never carried a family’s lives on the books
until the infrequent pay days came, often forgetting to
charge for little items that were so important to
survival.
I clattered a stick against the iron fence of the Navy
Yard, looking up and down the street for Shove. He was
not in sight. The smell of the harbor, the full mixture
of a sea salad, came over the wall beside the Barracks.
It was crisp and clean and smelled vaguely like a treated
wound. Behind me the iron wings of the Mystic Bridge
sprang up against a Chelsea background. Ahead of me,
standing on the shoulders of uniform ranks of ironclad
stanchions, the lines of The El ran off to North Station
and to Thompson Square, ran off to the outlands, other
places with other dimensions. It was an escape route that
someday I would take.
In the drug store in City Square I nosed around the
magazine rack, feigning interest in a dozen covers,
looking under piles for what I knew wasn’t there.
All I had to do was arouse a little suspicion.
The clerk watched me for a while and came over.
“Looking for something special, kid?” He was
almost nodding to himself, having spotted another
“lifter.” I knew he hated kids who stole and
sailors who drank, and he had seen plenty of each.
“My father’s looking for the last issue of G-8
and His Battle Aces, but it’s not here. He’s
got this one.” I pointed to the current issue.
“But he doesn’t have the last one. Said this
was the only place I could find it.”
He bit all the way. “Let me look out back. Wait a
minute.” He left and I wasted no time. I dipped my
hands into the adhesive tape box and scooped eight rolls
inside my jacket. Eight, I figured, was enough.
The clerk returned with the magazine in his hand.
“It’s ripped a little on the cover.” He
was apologizing to me.
“I’ll give you a nickel for it.”
Another customer came into the store. The clerk raised
his voice and said, “Aw, you can have it, kid. Go
ahead, take it.” The magazine was thrust into my
hands as he smiled at the new customer. The customer
smiled at the clerk and patted me on the head.
I ran down Chelsea Street. The song of the streets was
not the thundering click-clack of the Elevated cars
leaning on the stanchions, or the ear-splitting shriek as
metal wheels rode hard on curved rails, or the iron clad
wheels of a milk wagon on the cobblestones, or a harbor
whistle moaning far away. The new song beat its drums in
my mind over and over again, and the simple words leaped
upon my ears. “I getz catcha, Shove. I getz catcha.
I getz catcha, Shove. I getz catcha.” The drums beat
faster and my heart beat with them, pounding in my chest,
putting an inner pressure at my ears.
It was a glorious new day and Charlestown was a glorious
place and the Great God Shove was coming down from his
mighty throne!
Later in the morning all was ready for the final
confrontation. The battle plan was drawn. Never once did
I waver in the plan or my determination to bring the
bully down. Consequences did not bother me. I had been
given license, and, after all, I was only seven years old
and Shove was seventeen. Surely the whole world would
side with me. It was only just to do so, and survival,
ultimately, was the responsibility of the individual. I
never had pitied the drunks sleeping in doorways. Each of
them, if he had wanted to, could have had a different
life. Of that I was so sure.
And I would not ever scramble in the gutter in front of
Shove again.
At noon I was ready. I whiffed a great draught of
Amontillado in the hallway and it killed all the odors I
had come to hate so much. The sun hung out over Old
Ironsides where my father had often baby-sat one or more
of us. Shadows were short and square on Bunker Hill Ave.
I prayed for Shove to be nearby. He was not on the
Avenue. I could see way up past Abie’s Market and he
was not in sight. Time was important and I was worried.
Around the corner I looked and my fingertips tingled.
Shove was sitting in front of Halsey’s with two of
his pals. It was now or never, and the song began its
drumbeat in my head.
Back inside the hallway, from behind the door I had set
open with a stick, I retrieved five flat, smooth stones
it had taken hours to find. Each was suitable for
skipping across The Oily; the name we’d given to the
Mystic River as it flowed its rainbows of colors out to
sea. Each stone was balanced and true. David could have
slung them.
At the corner I sucked in a huge gulp of air. Edgar and
his Amontillado could not help me now. All the dreaming
was done and the act of survival was at hand. I was alone
on the corner.
I yelled. “Hey, Shove, you big bully.” One
stone was firmly gripped in the fingers of my right hand.
The others were in my left fist. “Hey, Shove, you
friggin’ bully.”
He moved off the steps and stood up. Like Goliath he
looked. “Screw you, kid,” he yelled back at me.
In a high arc I heaved the first stone. Shove laughed as
he easily caught it on the fly and heaved it back at me.
It bounced on the sidewalk and skittered across the
street. The arc of my second stone was not as high as the
first one. He caught it, dropped it, picked it up and
flung it back at me. I dodged it easily.
My third toss was a clothesliner. In its straight
trajectory it flew at Shove’s chest. He leaped
sideways against the wall of the store and his pals
jumped into the doorway out of sight. The stone smashed
off the wall.
Fist raised, Shove screamed, ‘Why you scrawny little
bastard you.” And he started toward me, the fist
still doubled. Ninety feet from me he started to walk
faster, but his steps measured, as though he were ready
to leap sideways again. My heart echoed in my ears. I
gulped for a last shot of air and heaved a last perfect
shot. It hit out in front of him, skipped on its backside
and took off. It hit him square on the shin and I could
hear the thunk of it, like an ax hitting a board. Then
Shove came. He came at a dead run. In two steps he was at
top speed, his knees popping high, his stride as long as
Paul Bunyan's.
“You little bastard, I’ll kick your ass all
over town.”
I darted around the corner, into the hallway and started
up the stairs. Shove was screaming behind me, his steps
getting closer, closing down the distance. In the middle
of the long flight of steps I stumbled. My knees banged
on the edge of the tread. The stab of pain took itself
right into my hip. I still had time. Shove was not in the
hall yet. Seventeen more steps and I was home. Fifteen
more. Thirteen. Shove hit the wall in the hallway. He was
right behind me! Nine more steps. Seven. Shove was on the
steps! Five more steps. Three. He was pounding up behind
me, still cursing and screaming. I leaped onto the second
floor landing and over the barrel turned on its side. All
the energy I ever wanted was in my arms and in my legs at
that moment as I shoved the barrel off the landing and
down the steps.
Eight complete rolls of adhesive tape were wrapped around
the barrel, top to bottom, holding the cover in place. I
was even able to make out the legend scrawled on one band
of tape as the barrel started on its way. “I getz
catcha!”
Both of us heard the barrel hit the first step in a dull,
metallic and wooden thud. It hit the third step down a
little sharper, the smashing sound crisper, and more
metallic. Shove’s eyes ballooned in the dim light.
They popped bigger than silver dollars. His hands came
out in front of him in a pitiful gesture,
half-beseeching, half-protecting. The barrel hit the
steps again and I thought the whole tenement building
shook.
The Great God Shove and the barrel met in the middle of
the stairs. There was a sickening crunch at the
collision. Shove screamed in pain and the scream flew up
the walls of the hallway, up into the upper landings, off
the metallic ceiling.
Shove crumpled on the steps three-quarters of the way
down. The barrel, turned by the collision, went end over
end and hit the door jam and shook every flat in the
building.
Above me a door opened and someone in a deep, demanding
voice yelled out, “What was that? What the hell
happened?”
Shove’s two pals, framed in the doorway below, stood
in a trance, their mouths open, their hands limp and
helpless at their sides. Shove was crying. His leg was
broken. When the police came he told them he was helping
some kid carry the barrel and it had slipped.
I never saw Shove again.
At least not on my side of the street.
Contributor:
Tom Sheehan
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